Why does it seem that God is punishing me when I’ve done nothing wrong, and also prospering those who have hurt me and caused me pain?

I was a faithful family man, deacon at my church, a community leader, and had a good name and reputation both professionally and publicly. I returned home from my shift one day to meet my wife in the driveway of the home we had just built just to have her say, "Pack your things and get out. I do not want to be married to you any longer.”

She had me served with divorce papers the very next day. This was 10 years ago, and I have never recovered.  I had sever mental and psychological issues because of this and have lived alone, isolated from the world and took a vow of celibacy, to which I have held. I have kept my faith, hope, and beliefs and I have forgiven all those who have caused me pain. 

I’ve applied for many jobs and have not been hired, and I’m living in an RV. Am I being punished? What is wrong and how do I go about making it right?

It seems, and I say “seems,” as my own parlance, that everyone who has wronged me has never missed a step and have gotten on with life. God seems farther away from me now than any other time in my life and I am running out of strength to combat it.

Clarify • Share • Report • Asked February 28 2021 • Jamie Brown