Why can't I control my thoughts?
I for a year now I have wicked thoughts about God. Some when I cursed God and some that I am too ashamed to even type about. I even have thoughts telling me that I'm pathetic and I'm a satanic child. It drives me crazy. It leads me too think that Jesus has given up on me, which I know its a lie. I thoughts about killing myself, beating myself up, or just giving into the world. But I love Christ to much to just give up on my faith. But I'm still a bit discouraged. I pray to Jesus and tell him that I'm sorry for the wicked thoughts I have about him. I know that he know that I don't mean it, because the love I have for him. I do think about just giving up, but I just can't. Please pray for me? Will God hold me accountable for this?
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Asked May 05 2014
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Darius Seals
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Robert Retieff
I have the same thing and it’s horrible. I’m so ashamed I stopped living for God to get away from those, but I was never happy in my sin. I thought, “I will just confess my sin, trying to figure where it came from; why did this have to happen to me?”I feel robbed because I never wanted the thoughts, and I’m having the same thing as what you mentioned. It hurts so much because I love God and his son that died for me on Calvary’s cross, but I suffer the very same as you.