Sandy Perez

Christian, Wife, Mother of 5, Gramma of almost 10

I am a 65 year old Woman.  I left my church about 15 years ago after suffering an enormous amount of grief from the loss of my 24 year old son.  I was not raised Christian but became a Seventh Day Adventist about 10 years before he was killed.  My children were all raised in Adventist Schools but unfortunately that DOES NOT matter! They are in complete opposition to anything Christian!    Recently I started reading scripture and decided to try again because I never stopped loving God and will not stop being totally blown away by Jesus’s grace and forgiveness of my sin!  My problem though is I could never.connect with how to  ‘live” a victorious life without habitual sin.  Can anyone tell me how to get Gods word into my heart for a lasting change?